Monday, September 28, 2009

Not going well



This pictures sorta sums it all up. I just am not doing well with running lately. I dont get how someone can run a half marathon, a ten miler, a 6 miler, and a 5K and still not be able to do it. I was supposed to run 4 miles on Thus and made it probably a half mile down the road and had to turn back due to low blood sugar issues. Then I was to run 7 miles on Sunday and made it about 1 and then quit on Mike. Its just not going well. I am getting cramps I havent had before and I feel worn out all the time. I just really dont feel like I can do it, or even halfway do it. We'll see what happens. Mike is going to re-do my training plan and make some changes. I am just worried that I cant get back to the running regime I was once accustomed to. I feel that I have failed myself and Mike and am just not meant to do this running stuff. Hopefully this is just a setback and it will pick up again soon and the Richmond race will go well. I am just not feeling confident about this lately.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know

This survey has been going around the diabetes blogs I read lately so I thought Id fill one out.

1. The illness I live with is: type 1 diabetes
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: January 1985. I thought I was three but with this date it appears that I was 2. My father informed me of this when I was like 25 years old.
3. But I had symptoms since: Not too long before.
4. The biggest adjustment I've had to make is: Constantly carrying a glucose monitor with me and wearing an insulin pump.
5. Most people assume: that I have not had diabetes as long as I have.
6. The hardest part about mornings are: Never really knowing what my blood sugar is going to be b/c you never know what could happen during the night.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: House!
8. A gadget I couldn't live without is: my glucose meter and pump.
9. The hardest part about nights are: having to wake up to check my blood sugar on nights where I eat foods that I dont know how it will affect it.
10. Each day I take some pills & vitamins: I take one for blood pressure, iron pills every other day and a vitamin D pill twice a month.
11. Regarding alternative treatments: Insulin is all I want to try as it works!
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: No illnesses!
13. Regarding working and career: Everyone at work knows I have diabetes and since I work in a hospital I feel rather safe most of the time!
14. People would be surprised to know: That this is a constant 24/7 disease where I am always thinking and counting and examining and planning on how to manage it next.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: that I have no memory of what life is like without this disease.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: run a half marathon.
17. The commercials about my illness: Are always about type 2 which may have the same name but is a completely different illness.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: Dont know! too little to remember!
19. It was really hard to have to give up: Eating as much pizza as I once did, but not eating that much has helped my A1C level improve!
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: Reading diabetic blogs.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: wow. I cant think of that b/c to me it still seems like a miracle to make happen.
22. My illness has taught me: To always be thinking.
23. One thing people say that gets under my skin is: When they know people who have had complications and assume itll happen to me.
24. But I love it when people: Ask questions that are appropriate and want to see the insulin pump.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: Probably my Dad's attitude when something would go wrong diabetes wise and how he always said it was going to be okay and not to overreact.
26. When someone is diagnosed I'd like to tell them: They can have a normal life.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: It is manageable to still be healthy if you do the right things!
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn't feeling well was: Rub my head.
29. I'm involved with Invisible Illness Week because: We need to raise more awareness to make this disease go away.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: that you wanted to learn more.

Monday, September 21, 2009

7 became 6


I was supposed to run 7 miles yesterday but I havent been feeling well. I kept thinking that if I ran 7 and it went bad than I would feel bad about the whole running thing. So I decided to run 6 and have it go well and feel good about the whole thing. So yes 7 became 6 and it went really well even though I didnt feel that great and seem to have a cold now. Oh well. I need to get over this cold as the next few weeks get pretty intense with the mileage!

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Another 5K and the wknd in Erie....

We signed up for another 5K race in Arlington, VA on Nov 8th. That is right before the half marathon on Nov 14th so I think itll be a good way to get me ready. The race is in honor of a little girl who has brain cancer. Her Dad is a John Carroll graduate and I saw an article about the race in a John Carroll email I got today and I thought I had to sign up. The little girl has a webpage devoted to her and it was nice to read it and see how she is doing.

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/teamalexis

Mike and I went back to Erie again this wknd. Papa John passed away on September 13th. It was all very sad but he was finally at peace and hopefully the funeral went how he wanted it too. One of the last things I told him about was how we are running in the half marathon in Richmond.




Running in Erie went okay this wknd. Mike and I ran 6 miles in DC on Saturday which went better than expected. I had to walk a few times but I never felt that I couldnt do it at all. I didnt run again until Tuesday and though we only went 3 miles, it felt brutal. Taking days off in between running is great sometimes, while other times it really hurts! Of course I am not running again until tomorrow so I will probably be kicking myself then as well!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Erie running

Running on the Peninsula this wknd went better than expected. Mike and I ran 5 miles. 5 is the distance to beat right now and I still feel I am struggling more than I did last time I did this. We shall see. Here are some Erie and Pittsburgh pics to enjoy.